A few weeks ago I received an email from a gentleman, who follows the Speak 2B Free blog, asking me if I believe I was designed to be African or black or if this is result of environmental thinking. Personally, I still do not know what my answer is to this question but I asked him if I could share our conversation with everyone on the blog and he agreed.
My answer was simply:
I do not know if I was designed to be black or African. What does that mean even? But I do believe that race is a major part of our lives and I openly admit that I am shaped by my experiences as a black woman. We all respond to situations differently and see things in a particular way because of our environment.
If you go to the Caribbean you will notice that black women respond differently to race than black women in the USA and South Africa. That is because being black in the Caribbean has diffferent connotations than in the USA and South Africa. At the end of the day I feel as though we are all a product of our environment – in my case Africa. To iginore the effects that our culture and society’s stereotypes have on us is a fallacy. Yet, all this being said it is up to us to become self made people and re-envision how we see ourselves; crafting our lives to be what we want. I think the worst thing is a self imposed prison, believing the lies we are told about ourselves (regarding race and gender). Race and gender do not predetermine the individual, no matter what we are told. For me being a black woman has really helped me understand the importance of having a voice and being South African (my environment) has givin me a deep interest in freedom but travelling has turned most of my beliefs up side down (beliefs that were shaped by my environment) and forced me to question everything in my life. We are a sum of our experiences but beyond that we are shaped by how we reacted to these experiences and the lessons we learn from them. I do not know if I would have such an obsessio with freedom and spoken word poetry if I were not South African but this is the beauty of free will: it could have gone either way – I could have programmed myself to fit in and to follow rules…
